So, some happy stuff, first off I am back to doing my Yoga and getting stronger. And a funny thing is that my daughter came home from KPAC the other day and said that she can't do these lift kicks with the gorgeous guy dancers because her legs just don't know how to FAN, that it was real hard. And I said, LIKE THIS? and did it sitting in my chair here and she said HOW CAN YOU DO THAT? I told her that I had taken ballet when I was young and that I have done Yoga all my life, which is almost 5 times longer than hers. So, anyhow, I am working with her, she even did my Yoga with me and the whole time I was talking her through it and she was out of breath and yelling at me that the stuff I was doing was impossible for her, maybe because her legs were too long, she suggested.
Anyways, that was actually a nice day. I felt better because I was off those Statins! Then last Saturday was her Military Ball and she had her best friend come over and they got ready together and I just let her do whatever she wanted, like go through all my jewelry - and leave it out all over the place, causing my husband to acutally notice that I had WAY too much of it - but it was fun. No, I don't have any photos, she got ready and left and wouldn't wait for me to take a picture. But she had a great time and came home thrilled about it all. And there will be pictures at some point, her friend took some.
So Saturday was good, at least until while trying to diagnose my computer I found out that she had logged into two sites that she is not allowed to go to. Not just looked at them, but actually logged in. I decided not to tell her that night when she got home because I knew or at least hoped that she would come home happy. The next day was Valentines Day and I am now going to officially join the club that thinks that day is the worst day of the year. It is stressful and one feels that they should be doing something lovey dovey because that's what we are told by card, jewelry and flower sellers. But frankly, it was a difficult day for me.
And to go along with that, Rev. Chris Schwab is just not getting it for me. He left me out in the cold when my mother died. He is spiritually empty, and extremely lacking in comforting ministerial ways, but you can't tell him that because he gets mad and yells at me. He is younger than my son and far less intelligent, like maybe 1/4 as intelligent, if that much. He brags that he has 10 years of experience. Yes, maybe so, over there on the mainland, but he can't relate to people here on this little island. He is not a Kahu, no way comes anywhere near to ever being allowed to use that title. At this point, I will stop just short of calling him a jerk, and that's only because he is so young (and so full of himself)
So back to our Valentines Day. My husband cut some pretty flowers from the garden, and picked fresh papaya from the tree, and in doing that, he accidentally knocked down a green one that hit him in the lip. That might have been karma and only he knows what I am talking about. But it took all day into evening until I opened the card. I don't think anyone could ask for someone to be a more caring partner than he is. But we're not soul mates. He knows that. I know that. I'm not sure I ever had a soul mate. I thought so once, but that didn't work out. So like I said, I could do without Valentine's Day.
Here - I just got this CD, THE SEA. It is so gorgeous. This song is stunning. Thank god I have music.
Ooh, you’re searching for something I know, won’t make you happy
Ooh, you’re thirsting for something I know, won’t make you happy
Ooh, you did it all again, you broke another skin
It’s hard to believe this time, hard to believe
That my heart, my heart’s an open door
You got all you came for, baby
So weary, someone to love is bigger than your pride’s worth
Is bigger than the pain you got for it hurts
And out runs all of the sadness
It’s terrifying, life, through the darkness
And I’d do it all again, I’d do it all again
I’d do it all again, I’d do it all again
You try sometimes but it won’t stop
You got my heart and my head’s lost, ooh yeah
I’ve been burning down these candles for love, for love
So weary, someone to love is bigger than your pride
Ooh, someone to love, mm, someone to love
Someone to love
Ooh, you’re searching for something I know, won’t make you happy
Ooh
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZfp7Txyk_Y
Corinne Bailey Rae - Beautiful music and lyrics
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